Sunday, July 29, 2007
{ 12:42 AM }
People who work, live for the weekends. I'm still working, but anxious as a bunny on speed to quit. Tuesday, I can hardly wait.
It's been such a wonderful experience, going to court, meeting lawyers and magistrates, doing research and even preparing the awfully mundane court documents but it's about time this woman gets her much deserved break.
I am after all on a holiday.
Last night was good fun. Empire's presidential suite PLUS a 30 minute firework display, sounds amazing, no? Not if you were late to catch the fireworks.
Regardless, the night was much needed - the booze (of which I had too little to genuinely say I enjoyed myself), the barrel of laughs, the company, the music, the atmosphere.
Although the crowd eventually got a little bit too rojak for my liking, we had out own little nook on the balcony with our own group, which suited me perfectly fine.
I think I'm sick, having a case of the pre-Monday blues.
I know it's just two more days to waking and sleeping at ungodly hours, non stop complaints of nothing to do, lazing and bumming and going for ample massages, but I can't wait.
Have a great weekend everyone, what's left of it anyway.
People who work, live for the weekends. I'm still working, but anxious as a bunny on speed to quit. Tuesday, I can hardly wait.
It's been such a wonderful experience, going to court, meeting lawyers and magistrates, doing research and even preparing the awfully mundane court documents but it's about time this woman gets her much deserved break.I am after all on a holiday.
Last night was good fun. Empire's presidential suite PLUS a 30 minute firework display, sounds amazing, no? Not if you were late to catch the fireworks.
Regardless, the night was much needed - the booze (of which I had too little to genuinely say I enjoyed myself), the barrel of laughs, the company, the music, the atmosphere.
Although the crowd eventually got a little bit too rojak for my liking, we had out own little nook on the balcony with our own group, which suited me perfectly fine.
I think I'm sick, having a case of the pre-Monday blues.
I know it's just two more days to waking and sleeping at ungodly hours, non stop complaints of nothing to do, lazing and bumming and going for ample massages, but I can't wait.
Have a great weekend everyone, what's left of it anyway.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
{ 1:16 AM }
So I've been watching Nip/Tuck lately, a TV series that needs no introduction. It's a tad too gruesome for my appetite but it gives you a really visual insight on plastic surgery and the whole recovery process of it all.
Does anyone know of the person who said beauty lies skin deep? Because he sure is a fat liar!
So in this ultra demanding world we live in, we all constantly strive to be perfect. And we all know that no one is perfect, it's like searching for the end of the rainbow expecting a pot of gold at the end, you'll just never get there.
Plastic surgery. One of the greatest breakthroughs in the medical realm to correct physical disorders (and by this I, too, mean in the sense of accidental mishaps and what not) or a money making scheme to feed our vanity and insecurities?
I know my limits. Do you?
So I've been watching Nip/Tuck lately, a TV series that needs no introduction. It's a tad too gruesome for my appetite but it gives you a really visual insight on plastic surgery and the whole recovery process of it all.
Does anyone know of the person who said beauty lies skin deep? Because he sure is a fat liar!
So in this ultra demanding world we live in, we all constantly strive to be perfect. And we all know that no one is perfect, it's like searching for the end of the rainbow expecting a pot of gold at the end, you'll just never get there.
Plastic surgery. One of the greatest breakthroughs in the medical realm to correct physical disorders (and by this I, too, mean in the sense of accidental mishaps and what not) or a money making scheme to feed our vanity and insecurities?
I know my limits. Do you?
Monday, July 23, 2007
{ 2:44 AM }
I've been having such a difficult time trying to find the right words to describe the things I've been going through, all these emotions and hormones surging through my body. They're the culprits to my sometimes rash and random acts.
My daily routine remains somewhat monotonous; work, rest, rummy, bball, poker and the countless sessions of tea. While physically all seems swell, there's so much going on underneath that I just find it so difficult to describe, let alone explain. I can't quite put a finger on what's happening to me but baby steps, baby steps.
Everybody leaves, you know it's true. I want you to stay but that'd just be too selfish of me, to jeopordise the shining bright future ahead of you for a brief moment of satisfaction. Our days are numbered but the days that have passed and the hours spent together - priceless. As much as I want you to stay I will just force a smile and say: I wish you well and I hope to God that this future we both want so badly will be worth it.
I think this is as much people-leaving as I can take.
p.s to the KL crew - I'm coming back soon, date yet to be decided. It'll be so wonderful to meet up again. I will let you all in on details. I heard excellent feedback about the Human Rights Campaign. Good work guys, you deserve every single ounce of credit, especially to you Ying. See you guys soon.
I've been having such a difficult time trying to find the right words to describe the things I've been going through, all these emotions and hormones surging through my body. They're the culprits to my sometimes rash and random acts.
My daily routine remains somewhat monotonous; work, rest, rummy, bball, poker and the countless sessions of tea. While physically all seems swell, there's so much going on underneath that I just find it so difficult to describe, let alone explain. I can't quite put a finger on what's happening to me but baby steps, baby steps.
Everybody leaves, you know it's true. I want you to stay but that'd just be too selfish of me, to jeopordise the shining bright future ahead of you for a brief moment of satisfaction. Our days are numbered but the days that have passed and the hours spent together - priceless. As much as I want you to stay I will just force a smile and say: I wish you well and I hope to God that this future we both want so badly will be worth it.
I think this is as much people-leaving as I can take.
p.s to the KL crew - I'm coming back soon, date yet to be decided. It'll be so wonderful to meet up again. I will let you all in on details. I heard excellent feedback about the Human Rights Campaign. Good work guys, you deserve every single ounce of credit, especially to you Ying. See you guys soon.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
{ 5:23 AM }
I never imagined I would become someone I detested and despised for the longest time.
I could go on with a million "but's" but they'd all be excuses, flees from the truth.
I'm not one to admit when at fault, but this time I am.
And I know I have hurt you. I close my eyes and I imagine you, hopeless and lost. Your tears, your eyes, they sentenced my death.
There's nothing I can say to make you feel better. I know that. I wish I could say that I have so much to tell you, but I'm at a loss for words. The party at fault usually has no satisfactory defence.
Hopefully one day you'll forgive me for my awful sin.
I never imagined I would become someone I detested and despised for the longest time.
I could go on with a million "but's" but they'd all be excuses, flees from the truth.
I'm not one to admit when at fault, but this time I am.
And I know I have hurt you. I close my eyes and I imagine you, hopeless and lost. Your tears, your eyes, they sentenced my death.
There's nothing I can say to make you feel better. I know that. I wish I could say that I have so much to tell you, but I'm at a loss for words. The party at fault usually has no satisfactory defence.
Hopefully one day you'll forgive me for my awful sin.
Monday, July 09, 2007
{ 10:25 PM }
They say to find balance in everything you do. They say to always remain neutral in conflicts. They say to divide your time well so everything weighs out well.
They don't tell you how, do they?
They say to find balance in everything you do. They say to always remain neutral in conflicts. They say to divide your time well so everything weighs out well.
They don't tell you how, do they?
*****
My attachment's going well. Tonnes of work dumped on my desk, unfinished court documents, cases and files waiting for my attending to. Court visit are regular and although work attire pretty much comprises of all that is black and white, with the occasional dash of green and brown, I can see myself doing this for a living in the future.
*****
Basketball season just started. It all kicks off with, this year because of a gracious sponsor, the Aewon Sultan's Cup, possibly followed by the Coca-Cola Cup and finished off with Rimula. It'll be amazing to follow up the entire season again, just like how I would.
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It's my dad's birthday today. He turns 51; a little past half a century. Ancient. Me and my sister are taking him out to dinner tonight. He knows how much we love him. We do our part to try to patch up broken holes in this already very worn out family.
*****
I'm UK bound in approximately two months for about a year and I'm very excited for reasons both general and personal.
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Aside from the very briefly scrawled updates, life's been kind to me.
In the past few weeks I've reaffirmed my belief that the decisions and choices you make are yours and yours alone, you don't need to justify them or explain them to anyone because your body is a complex creation of God and whatever you have to, want to or need to do, it is an emission of your needs.
I've also realised where loyalties lie and how accidental slips can bring about costly medical expenses. And also how our insecurities can force us to do the funniest things.
I'm glad I see direction in my life, although not in all areas. I don't need looking for new thrills because all I have is here. I know my boundaries, although they can change but I'll adapt.
And everyday I start and end by being grateful.
In the past few weeks I've reaffirmed my belief that the decisions and choices you make are yours and yours alone, you don't need to justify them or explain them to anyone because your body is a complex creation of God and whatever you have to, want to or need to do, it is an emission of your needs.
I've also realised where loyalties lie and how accidental slips can bring about costly medical expenses. And also how our insecurities can force us to do the funniest things.
I'm glad I see direction in my life, although not in all areas. I don't need looking for new thrills because all I have is here. I know my boundaries, although they can change but I'll adapt.
And everyday I start and end by being grateful.